Government and all that

I have lived in London for many years and have never been quite so freaked out and surprised by the public's behaviour as now.  Over the last few days with the Clegg and Cameron coalition the press have been all over College Green - the patch of grass opposite the Houses of Parliament.  This has resulted in the world and his wife walking and talking there and generally trying to be seen on TV.  Do any of them realise how idiotic they  look - imagine being the children of a man who just wanted to be seen there - how embarrassing.  The British never used to be so keen to show themselves up; now we are some of the biggest show-offs in the world.

Drowning, not waving

I have been struggling for some time with a serious bout of depression - looked at bridges over the Thames thinking about how simple it might be to just jump off.  However, I know that drowning is not an easy option, that I have too many people who love me to put them the pain of loss; doesn't stop me feeling bad, but stops me doing something crazy.

My mood is starting to rise, to my relief, and I shall be waving in no time.  Glancing through a few blogs I have been amused by somebody obviously misinterpreting the title of one which incorporated 'wet' - this, rather sad, person thought the woman might be looking for some kind of sexual encounter.  Groan - what is it with some men -

Dodgy Invitations

It is a mystery to me how people/sites get my e-mail address, particularly as I have an excellent firewall.  However e-mails from unknown addresses do, at least, go into my junk e-mail which is something, I suppose.  The newest one was an invite to join 'Queerpeople' - and I thought the word queer was no longer acceptable in the gay or homosexual community - obviously nobody's told the site administrator.

I also get odd 'somebody fancies you' messages on my mobile phone which I ignore, of course.  I understand that this can be a ploy to get you to call a premium line number just as a call suggesting that I have had an accident and might need a lawyer is much the same thing.  I do wonder whether anybody is taken in by it - how could anybody know if you have had an accident.  There are things about over-communication that can be a bad thing.

Incidentally, most of my friends don't do it, but sometimes I get sent those rather silly chain-letters encouraging me to send the (often rather soppy - pass on a hug-type suggestion) on to 10 other people.  At work I have often wondered how people find the time, or the inclination to do so - in fact, on one occasion a number of members of staff were ticked off because it was thought a pornographic message had been forwarded.

Blogs and how they are listed

I have just looked at the next several blogs by clicking next blog and it seems to me that I have stumbled across quite a few blogs which involve exercise and fitness.  As I am unfit, rather disinterested in exercise person I flicked through them quickly, only to pause at one which referred to the break up of her marriage.  (When I looked at her previous posts it seemed that the whole thing came out of the blue - one minute her life was great; the next it wasn't!)

My life is a bit like that - I can feel on top of the world for a few months and then get taken over by feelings of overwhelming sadness and hopelessness.  I know this is mainly due to my illness, but long to have more moderate feelings and moods.  However, I do have a lovely man in my life who helps me through my down phases - keeps reminding me that it will pass and that things do get better.  When in the doldrums it is hard to believe that that is ever going to happen.  I am in the dismal phase at the moment and hope writing this may help me to come out of it.

I think if he wasn't around I would probably starve myself as I have no desire to look after myself - I struggle to get out of bed and shower at these times.  But, I am determined to get better and am fighting to stay positive and focused, difficult though it is.